Chai Love You A Latte: A Childhood Friends to Lovers MM Romance by F.A. Ray

Author:F.A. Ray [Ray, F.A.]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2024-01-09T00:00:00+00:00

Chapter Twenty

Trent

GABE AND AVERY left before I got out of bed this morning. I take that as a small blessing.

It hurts not seeing Gabe as much since that one night. He’s obviously been avoiding me, and I him. Maybe it’s for the best. I don’t know where we stand. I don’t know anything. The whole world is quicksand shifting beneath me, dragging me into some dark unknown.

I get dressed and grab my backpack, laptop and some course materials. Gabe will probably be happier if I’m not here when him and Avery get back, so I hustle out of Ivers’ Tower and head for the library. I can hunker there all day long and it won’t even seem weird. With the café closed and everyone getting ready for finals, it’s the best place on campus to hide from your problems.

Is Gabe a “problem?” I hate thinking about him that way, but things definitely aren’t good between us. He said I needed space to think, but it’s only leaving my head even more scrambled. I keep trying to figure out what I did wrong and how I can fix it, all while avoiding the bigger, looming question about what this even is. What are we? What are we going to be in the future? Did hooking up ruin everything?

Fuck, I have no answers. I keep my head down and haul my ass to the library as fast as I can, like I’m running from my own questions.

The place is crowded thanks to reading week. I find a secluded table near the back. One student sits at the end. I choose the far other end of the table, and we promptly ignore each other.

Every table has outlets, so I plug in my laptop, pop in headphones and open one of my computer science assignments. There’s something calming about combing through lines and lines of code, finding the flaws, making little improvements. Technically, I’m going beyond the requirements of the assignment, but the work keeps my hands busy and my mind distracted, so I dive into it without worrying about the instructions.

The girl at the other end of the table leaves at some point. A pair of students immediately replace her. They sit across from each other comparing notes on what might be art history, but I’m in my own world and pay them little heed.

At some point, the code on my screen begins to blur, and I head to the internet for a mental break. The moment I open the browser, it loads my latest search … which was “how do I know if I’m gay.”

Brilliant move, Trent.

As though some internet quiz is going to answer that question for me. Still, I find myself clicking around, following a trail of links and articles that don’t only talk about coming out, but also, uh, some … detailed positions that I probably shouldn’t even be reading about in the on-campus library. None of it has pictures, and I’m wearing earbuds in case an ad pops

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